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If I Was Your Girl by Meredith Russo

if-i-was-your-girlAmanda Hardy is the new girl in school in Lambertville, Tennessee. Like any other girl, all she wants is to make friends and fit in. But Amanda is keeping a secret. There’s a reason why she transferred schools for her senior year, and why she’d determined not to get too close to anyone.

And then she meets Grant Evernett. Grant is unlike anyone she’s ever met – open, honest, kind – and Amanda can’t help but start to let him into her life. As they spend more time together, she finds herself yearning to share with Grant everything about herself . . . including her past. But she’s terrified that once she tells Grant the truth, he won’t be able to see past it.

Because the secret that Amanda’s been keeping? It’s that she used to be Andrew.


If I Was Your Girl written by Meredith Russo was originally published in May 2016 (Usborne Publishing House), however, I’ve only started hearing about it on twitter in the last month or two.

I’m still unsure of how to rate this book. I feel like the thoughts I have, both positive and critical, simply cannot be complied into 5 measly stars.

While I enjoyed the time I spent with in Amanda’s mind, a path to seeing another story, another perspective into a life I (personally) would never experience. That said, I was definitely upset with the sorts of situations and horrors written into the plot – not including Grant. I admit the love story was written really well, and cute and I didn’t feel like there was any sort of ‘instalove’.

I could only  discussed what I disliked about the book to someone who already finished it and had time to gather their own thoughts, and while they didn’t share all my expressed opinions, they certainly seemed to have their own troubles.

Here are my thoughts in a series of bullet points and emoticons.

  1. I feel like this novel wasn’t targeted to the transgender community. I felt as though a lot of the process and the thoughts and feelings were very subdued, so that cisgenders could experience this book without being ‘too confronted’ or ‘scared’
  2. The UK paperback cover (not pictured) looks like a middle grade casual silly read, and it’s so much more than that, and I understand how important reads and voices like this are IMPORTANT. But some of the topics covered, may or may not be appropriate for 12 year olds. I would definitely consider this to be a New Adult, or older readers YA.
  3. The plot fillers in this book definitely made me feel uncomfortable. They also felt completely irrelevant.
  4. Some of the aspects of the book definitely felt predictable.
  5. IIWYG definitely did get me out of my reading slump thougggggh

THAT SAID, it is incredibly, and completely important that as readers you make your own thoughts and opinions on the books you read. Please read this novel if it interests you, I implore you to make your own minds about the content written between the lines of this book.

That was my not so reviewish-review…







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